Tomorrow is
$2.00 Tuesday and I'm putting quite a few of my Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas kits on sale...just in case you need to stock up for next fall and winter. Ha I won't post images here because frankly I don't like to see holiday stuff after it's over and done.
Yesterday was Valentine's Day which was very difficult for me, considering what my ex-husband put me through last year while he was still my husband...and considering the games he's been playing since we got divorced. He is a man who makes promises with no intention of fulfilling them. That's a concept that has been hard for me to fathom since I would never do that to someone. Manipulating people, especially for no particular reason, is a foreign concept to me. I'm still confused about what he was gaining from the games he's been playing over the past two months.
I won't rehash all the sickening details but I will say that Facebook can be an amazing tool. Because of Facebook, I have connected with people I knew back in high school but did not hang around with. We may have ridden the same school bus or were on the drill team at the same time but these people are now my Facebook friends and I'm getting to know them, really, for the first time. One of these friends is a girl who was in the class ahead of mine. She sensed my sorrow last night on Facebook and posted a few wise comments...things that I've known but wasn't ready to accept. But then she sent me a private message and in that she said:
…while it is normal to look backward, especially on Valentine's Day, we cannot move forward while we are looking backward. At any rate, we are likely to trip again if we don’t watch where we are going. Keep your eye on the prize, which is inner peace, plant your own garden, love yourself, donate some time. And use this pain to serve as a guide to not make the same kind of choices in men. My heart goes out to you, because I know how bad that pain can be.For some reason, this message, at this time, clicked with me and I thought "YES...I must stop looking backward."
Yesterday was also the start of my much anticipated Year of the Tiger, so late last night I sent my ex-husband an email with "Goodbye" in the subject line. I told him that I was no longer putting up with his abuse. I listed many of the unfulfilled promises that he had made to me over the past year, from the promise to give me financial help, to a promise of an apology, to the most recent promise of a privacy fence at my new house so that I could ensure my dogs' safety. As much as I could have used some financial help, I would rather sleep on an air mattress and cook in a toaster oven than have contact with him. He is a person who makes very bad choices with complete disregard for other people. I told him that he was to never contact me again.
Then I sent an email to his ex-wife, with whom he had an affair, and I thanked her for that and I listed many of the things I no longer have to endure. What a blessing that was and she, I'm sure, had no idea of the gift she was giving to me...while she was giving her "gift" to him!
After I clicked "Send" a weight instantly lifted from my heart. It is truly a new year for me...finally. I'll still have some tough times, but I am definitely going to follow my high school friend's advice to look forward so that I don't trip.